Trying To Put Out My Dumpster Fire

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Suicidal Thoughts (poem)

Have u ever thought to yourself/or that u just knew/when u were ready to die?/Like u could almost feel it and u prepared the best u could...

The abyss is churning
calling my name
with dark seduction
the sweet whispers
of death
begging me to part
down this dark tunnel
of nothingness
the joyful
almost sinful feeling
of nothing
to have my body
split from the torments
swirling within my mind
the creepin repetition

areyouready
areYOUready?
areyouwilling
areYOUwilling?

to depart
because its never so scary
as it seems
how can it be scary
when this is what you yearn for
what you wish for
and you are nothing
NOTHING
if not prepared
so go ahead
its okay

Ill hold your hand
Ill wipe ur tears
no worries luv
you're fearless in your decision
its time
now go
your bodys relaxed
your minds at peace
blissful silence
that supports you
and your actions
now go
gogogogoGOGOGO

No hesitation luv
this is what youve dreamed of
no going back
cant unwind the past

now see?
it whispers
dont you feel so much better now
relax for a few more minutes
itll be over soon.....

8:35 pm - Saturday, Dec. 04, 2010

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