Trying To Put Out My Dumpster Fire *********************************************************************************** Secret Diary & a brit accent Oh yeah...also discovered this show called 'Secret Diary of a Call Girl'...when i heard the title thought itd b pornish...which was the reason ive missed the first season and never gave it a second thought...but i was flippin channels and hey...its an actual series based off a book...anyway luv the show...and i also happen to b a sucker for a brit accent...lol 11:56 pm - Tuesday, Mar. 31, 2009 *********************************************************************************** Numbered Sibs...My Mom & Poetry...plus a lil online schoolin... Ummm okay...nothin much has been happening...mostly just fam shit... My mother told me i needed to bond more with my sis thirteen(such a funny wrd)...and at first i was kinda resentfull...then i thought bout it...and i came to the conclusion that i dnt...but honestly its like i dnt know what the hell to do with her...but i decided to try...and i think ive been gettin better... If i need to go to the store...even if its just to buy a pack of squares i take her with...we've also been doin really funny and dorky things together...like yes'day we were jammin to Jupiter Rising-L.A. Girls...like funny little dance moves and such...and she was all like wouldnt it be embarrassin if someone just walked in on us now...uhh yeah...but we decided fuck it lets keep dancin...and our bro seventeen walked n on us...lol he was like WTF...but basically we've been kickin it and shit... Ive also been there for seventeen n his rapping...i dnt know...since i told him i liked his shit...hes been comin to me and havin me listen to new beats and rhymes and shit...which is cool...just sometimes i dnt know what the hell to say to him...i can tell him i like the song or that its sweet only so many times...i mean if i didnt like it or got confused id let him know...but for the most part its been good... My mom read some of my poems the other day...which was weird...ive been writin poetry since 5th grade...and those poems were probably the only nondepressing poems ive pretty much ever written...the last time she read some of my work was in 6th grade...and that was only because a teacher took my poem cause she thought i was gonna pass a note...even though i was reworkin and fixin my poem...i was pretty pissed at her becuz i dnt let anyone read anythin thats not finshed... Anyway the teacher took the poem...read it...got the freakin principle involved and he then got the counselor...they basically thought i was gonna kill myself or others...which basically landed me my whole 3 jr high yrs seeing the school shrink...but that was the last time my mom basically read any of my work...she told them she supported my creativiness...but she told me sometimes my poems were made for attention... So she picked up my one notebook cuz i have it usually layin round the dining room table...cuz hey i dnt mind if u wanna read it...so she reads some...some she said 'awe' too which i didnt get...she said that too 'Im With Him' and 'Dirty/Morals'...and she thought 'The Right Way' was funny but she was a lil weirded out cuz she happens to know the guy who took my virginity and she didnt really care for him...but basically she said my work was good...i told her though to stay away frm 'Lovingly Psychotic Violation'...figured itd b a bit much for her...but wouldnt surprise me if she read it or tried to read it when im not round...idk...it was a weird but good moment between us... On the other note...im lookin at online schooling...which is kinda weird...i guess....cuz i have no idea wtf to do...but im pissed off at the school i was tryin to get n2 cuz theyre assholes and im the type with too much pride so im thinkin instead of bendin to u...imma tell u to fuck off and go find schoolin elsewhere...so thats what im tryin to do...but it is slightly weird just cuz im goin premed...so i think im just gonna do the whole online thing for 2 yrs...get my assoc. degree and go back to the real wrld...we'll see... 11:27 pm - Tuesday, Mar. 31, 2009 *********************************************************************************** |
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