Trying To Put Out My Dumpster Fire
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Lovingly Psychotic Violations(poem)
I punish myself again and again Cutting myself Was a way to make up sins to heal the pain I inflict upon others I keep gettin these moments Where Im so broken down My ass pressed firmly to the ground The shame is so deep I feel I have no more room to fall Yet I let you continue When you touch my skin It burns from within As you stroke me down I cringe Crawl inside my head Scared to make a sound But your violation fulfills me Warms me through out Im holdin on Cause even when this violation hurts me I know Ive done myself worse I just wanna cut my skin to burn my sin and feel again Why is that so wrong Im so lost inside myself And no one wants to hear my cry When my worthless tears Fall out my shallow eyes Im alone as Im surrounded by people Im alone in my thoughts For even my little voices Abandoned the need to teach me How to self destruct Guess Im doin well enough On my own Im slightly psychotic In my neediness to feel loved But I guess thats why Im with you You've had no problem takin full advantage of that
12:24 am - Monday, Mar. 30, 2009
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